stupidstupidstupid

'don't care.' If the people you surround yourself with stress you out, put you down, or make you uncomfortable...you should NOT be around them. There should be no explaination why, it should be blatently obvious to the person, considering they act that way.
so you ask, whats popular these days? i'll tell you:
being a bitch, backstabbers, arrogance, being uptight, and being flat out fake. five best friends or fifty aquantences? five best friends.
one best friend or one hundred friends? one best friend.
you really only need that one person, to tell everything and anything to, to be able to hangout untill you literally never want to see them again, but then they leave and you want them to come back over. that one person who you always get in the stupidest fights with, but then forget about it because you know it won't matter in the end. plus the next time you see them you can't help but smile and laugh about how stupid our fights are. i kinda lost that person, so now i only have about six best friends, who i really would not consider best friends if you knew the shit they talked and the things they do. i still don't know how i deal with them. its hard to get away.

wake up alone

it's funny how stupid people can be

stop trying to hide it , tell me what your problem is do not talk about me.

go on believe if it turns you on

so0o0oo i think im gonna start writing about more interesting things in here...cause thats funner. (more fun? fuck that ahah) you know posting pictures, writing about my day (cause you care), and other shitshitshit.

something to think about

i know how to make things really good

but i also know how to makes things really bad

maybe i'm crazy?

there are so many opportunities that i could be taking but i don't.
there is so much to do ... but i just don't.
there is so much i shouldnt be doing ... but i do.

stop

i only have one goal right now
and that is to stop procrastinating.


I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be



get me out.



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i'll just keep sitting there and act like i care.

confidence

can change everything. you don't notice the girl who stands there with her head down and no expression on there face.
you do notice the girl who floats around like she owns the place, always talking and laughing with someone with a smile on her face.
if you don't have confidence in yourself then you will never acheive what you want.
'if theres a will theres a way'
if you want it don't just sit there fantisizing about it, dreaming about it, and talking to your friends about it.
go out and get it. make it happen. and don't take no for an answer.
it might not always come when you want it to, but eventually you'll get it.
the best times are the times that aren't caught on camera. you won't notice how good of a time you are having while its happening. does that make sense? well i hope so.
i've learned that you can't spend your whole life rebeling against authority. the consequences just ruin everything and it will get you no where but a couple weeks/months in your room with no friends no phone no computer, nothing. plus, it always seems to happen around the worst times. eventually i'm gonna have to do something with my life, and i guess the only way i can do that these days is..........school. whether i like it or not, unless i wanna end up in some trailer park, i need to get ontop of things. it feels good to be successful. in anything really. grades, sports, personal goals etc. when those are reached you feel on top of the world.
'is it really that easy?' yes.
you just have to stop thinking so much and give just a LITTLE more effort. it's not as bad as i make it out to be, i just make exusese and procrastinate, so it makes it ten times worse. i just need time. i need to pause everything so i can catch up to the world.
just a little big longer, and i'll be fine
(did i just quote the jonas brothers? ...sorry, but it was just appropriate.)

our relationship is bipolor

please choose.


the more i love life, the more expectations and goals i set...
which causes more stress, and more worrys
which deffenitally...doesn't make me love life.

i'm running on empty, its a good kind of empty
they say food is fuel, but i dont seem to need that fuel

im content with the changes i'm seeing
i know they will just keep getting better

critisism is my weakness. i will second guess myself, i will believe you,
but it won't change anything
half the things i say you put down, whether your kidding or not, i can never really tell
i get over it.